WAR, PEACE
AND
POTATOES
BY
Odete M. Bigote
"Nothing can bring you peace but yourself." Ralph
Waldo Emerson
One of the most interesting events in my life was to volunteer at Covenant
House, in New York City, an institution to help run away teenagers.
My main task was to serve dinner. I was given about 150 big fat potatoes, and
asked to distribute one potato to each resident, except pregnant women or
individuals with children; they would get two potatoes. I had to count the
potatoes, as I gave them out, and inform the supervisor of the total count.
At the beginning, I had no idea how much the potatoes would stir my emotions.
Gradually, I started to wake up during the night dreaming of potatoes:
counting potatoes, drowning in potatoes, and fighting potatoes, even with my
fists. These images repeated themselves in the morning, afternoon and
evening, until I started to serve potatoes again: they became my inner enemy.
I was at war with "potatoes."
How dare those big fat potatoes interfere with my usual peaceful state of
mind?
By the same token, how dare I allow such interference?
"How perilous it is to free a people who prefer slavery."
Machiavelli
After some deep thinking, I realized the potatoes were a symbol I had chosen
to express the anger I felt within myself. I was angry at the parents of
those teenagers for not loving them, I was also angry at some of the
teenagers for not loving their parents. I was even angry at myself, as I
questioned my relationship with my parents.
Indeed, we project our inner thoughts in what we think is "the world, out
there," when, in truth, the problems are within us. We all do this "projection"
in
different forms: I chose "potatoes" to fight the war within me, whereas
another individual may choose, for instance, to commit a crime, therefore,
allowing his or her anger to go to extremes. Then, we say that there is evil
in this world.
Beware, evil is not in this world but within us. I'm not saying that we are
all like Hitler, Stalin or Blue Beard, what I'm saying is that we all project
our thoughts outward, in one form or another, and most of the time, without
realizing how much harm we are doing to ourselves. In this insane attitude,
we may not feel the pain we inflict on others but, sooner or later, we
certainly feel the pain we inflicted on ourselves.
WE ALLOW THE ENEMY WITHIN TO ENSLAVE US.
Can we use the war within to achieve peace?
Yes, we can and we must!
It is important to remember that as long as we are on earth and in this body
form, most of us cannot get rid of emotions; however, we can learn to handle
them. Anger, fear, hate, guilt, are all part of our so called "human
condition," which sometimes leads us to become anything but human. The big
question is WHY? The more we insist on projecting our problems, the more we
forget to look within: to try and understand who we are and, above all, to
remember love.
Most of our relationships give us a chance to fear, to hate, to get angry and
to love: in other words, to reverse our feelings. Even the most loving
relationship, let's say with a partner or with a parent, has its moments of
love and also despair. This is the ongoing dance of life. This is a difficult
dance for many of us. This is the war and peace within us.
"I can of my own self do nothing." John 5:30
This quote from the Bible, reminds us that we need help, perhaps more often
than we realize. We are not able to understand ourselves fully, and even if
we try, the ego will interfere and completely misguide us. Only our Higher
Self is able to guide and understand us; it sees the whole picture, it knows
exactly what each individual's mission is, where we started and where we are
heading. In short, the Higher Self has the script of our lives, of the
universe and of the planet.
Only after many sessions of meditation and relaxation exercises, and always
asking for help from our Higher Self, I was able to let go of the "potatoes"
in my mind.
Today, I look back at my experience and I thank the teenagers for the chance
they gave me to find peace again. I thought my job as a a volunteer was to
help them, but I ended up helping myself too.
Written by:
Odete M. Bigote
Copyright, 2003
Odete Martins Bigote Author: "You Can Remember Love:
Contemplations on Science and Spirituality. Discover that you are a powerful
hologram and rediscover a new you. http://www.portugueseprincess.com
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